I Have M.S. but M.S. does not have ME!
By: Sarah Brooke Nida, June 2011 (diagnosed August 2010)
I am a mother. I am a daughter. I am a friend. I am a teacher. I have M.S. However, M.S. does not have me!! I have believed since day one of this journey that I would not allow this disease to define who I am or who I will become. I have chose to view this as a bump in the road on my "journey of life". Although Multiple Sclerosis could be the scariest adventure for me yet, I am prepared to accept the challenge and hopefully conquer in the end.
I have made the decision to not live in fear and to accept the reality of this new journey. Losing my sight was by far the last thing I thought I would ever endure. When I would think about possible bad things to happen to me, going blind was never one of them. I took my health, my vision and my freedom for granted. I watched the world pass by me without taking a moment to enjoy the view and truly take it all in. Now that I have been blessed with the return of my sight, I will never take these simple moments for granted.
I will spend my days not only educating myself, but others on the disease, the effects on the patient and their family. I will become an activist for those fighting that are unable to do so. I will walk and run and throw my hands in the air with excitement.... BECAUSE I CAN!! I will spin my children around in the front yard and carry them in my arms knowing that I am one of the lucky ones. I am lucky to walk on my own two feet and feel everything around me. M.S. may have taken some of my sight, but it sure has not taken me.
I will continue to find the humor in the times I forget something or have to ask what the t.v. screen says. I will take my shot and pray that it continues to work for me. I will spend hours in the waiting room at every doctors appointment and continue to remind myself... I am lucky to be alive. My diagnosis was an awakening of sorts for me. I see the world and those around me in a completely different light. I am more confident, grateful and most importantly content with who I am and who I will become. I am not a label or a statistic. I am Sarah Brooke and I have M.S., but M.S. most certainly does not have me.